Thursday, March 4, 2010

Oh my God it's my birthday

It's my dreaded birthday.  I've become the big 42.  This is one of those moments that I was talking about where in another 5 yrs. I'm going to look back and say, "Wouldn't it be wonderful to be 42 again?"  Only, now that I'm in the moment I'm finding it very difficult to appreciate it.  42, that's another milestone where IF gets even more finalized.  I remember the RE telling me, "we want to try to get you pregnant by the time you are 41." That's here and gone.

Well what will be in store for me this year.  Last year it was fertility injections nearly every month until July.   That's when I finally realized that I was compromising my immune system too much.  It was taking me longer to recover from simple colds.  It all ended with my crazy illness in July after my 4th IVF.  Two weeks into my illness my hearing changed. Three courses of antibiotics and three courses of steroids could not get my hearing straightened out.  About 2 weeks ago I went back to the ENT for a check up.  Nothing has changed and he hasn't offered any new information.  My previous CT scan and MRI showed debris and swelling in my middle ear cleft left over from an infection.  I recently found out that there are ear specialist in addition to ENTs.  My next step is to find one and see if they can shed some light on the matter.

I'm also proud to announce that I've finally made an appointment with the OBGYN! Happy Birthday to me!  Tuesday is the big day.  I've been avoiding this for a while now.  I'm really not sure if I'm ready to find out if I have anymore fibroids or what my FSH is.  But I need to know.  If all is good then I think I'm going to try a couple more IUIs and see what happens.  Of course I will need a separate appointment for an ultrasound and blood work.  But at least I made the initial appointment!  I was kind of hoping they'd be booked for a few weeks, but no, there was an opening. So on Tues. at 4pm I'll be spread Eagle on the table.  Then they do the breast exam... that's always fun. I have a female doctor.  I've always wondered what would drive a man to become an OBGYN.  In this day and age I just don't feel comfortable getting an exam from a man.  But that's just one of my many hang ups!

Tonight I will be celebrating quietly with my DH, the pugs and some pizza.  Life is good sometimes.


  1. happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday, happy birthday, happy birthday to youuuuuuuu (I was singing it in my head:)

  2. Happy Birthday! I'll be turning 42 this year as well. Where did the time go? Enjoy your moment and have fun on your special day.

    Good luck with the OBGYN appointment. It takes courage to get back in the stirrups. Don't be afraid of male OBGYNs; the ones I've gone to have been more gentle and shown more compassion than the female ones for some strange reason.

  3. Happy happy happy birthday!

    I promise to revel in between my panic attacks.

    thank you for your incredible sweet support.

  4. Happy happy birthday! Your last line sounds like me--a quiet dinner at home with the dogs next to me just sounds like the most divine thing sometimes--it IS the most divine thing sometimes, isn't it?

  5. Happy birthday! And good luck at the ob-gyn.

  6. Happy belated birthday!!!!

    Not sure how I missed this post, but hope it was a fabulous day. Also, I agree with you about male obgyns (more the gyn than anything). I don't know if you ever saw the movie Porky's but one of the main character's (pee wee) aspiration was to be a gyno so he could look at vajajay all day. Yuck.

  7. Happy belated birthday to you & thanks for stopping by my blog today! I'll look forward to following you too! And I'm also a March birthday (in 2 weeks).