I haven't felt like blogging much lately. I'm sorry that I'm missing your posts, life has been exhausting. My mom was supposed to be in ICU just for a weekend but she's still there. The nurse described her as being "very frail". It sounds so strange to hear those words. Nothing was ever "frail" about my mother. She's used to be about 5"7", was always complimented on how young she looked and acted and the doctors used to tell her that she was so healthy.
The visiting hours are very limited in ICU (10am-1pm, 3pm-6pm, and 9pm-10pm) and they only allow 2 people at a time. It's so sad seeing my dad look at her. She never used to get sick...ever. I walked out to get us some coffee and when I came back my dad had his hand on my mom's hand and he was praying. I had to look away because I started to cry and didn't want to make either of them upset. My mom has a tube through her nose and down her throat so she can barely be understood when she speaks. She's never had surgery before so this type of pain is probably a shock to her particularly at her age.
It's been incredibly difficult watching all of this happen. I'm finding myself praying frequently and I haven't done that in a really really long time. I feel so helpless.