Snow Again! Damn That Groundhog!

This just has to stop.  Had off today because we're getting hammered with snow.  It started last night and has not stopped.  At this moment we have over a foot!  I'm trying to dig paths for the pugs who are completely confused.  Particularly the blind one.  All the major highways and businesses are closed.  Well that will leave me plenty of time to post my sob story that I've been wanting to write. To be continued....

Superbowl Sunday!

Okay, I'm not a big football fan, but I am a big Who fan.  In case you're not aware...The Who will be playing at half time!  I'm quite the obsessed fan.  I've seen them several times in the past few years when they've toured.  Fortunately my DH shares my enthusiasm.  In his defense he likes the Stones better.  Last November I got to meet Roger Daltrey! No, not because I'm special.  He was touring alone for a few months and had some meet and greet packages.  Very expensive but well worth it!  My husband knows how obsessed I am and purchased tickets for a second event.  At the time I could've killed him because of the expense.  I'm very frugal.  Fortunately he's not.  I met him twice!!! I know what you're thinking, that I'm a nut.  Well, I am.  And, yes, he is a senior citizen (Ha, ha), but wholly crap!  He's in better shape than me and my husband!  I am soOO in love with this man!

I've included some photos for my enjoyment:

If I weren't barren I would have his baby (even though I think he has six and has been married for 39yrs)!

Go New Orleans!  I'm not really a fan but they've been through so much. Have a great day ladies!

Snowbound Saturday!

So we got hit with 8 inches of snow last night.  Depending on where you live, 8 inches really isn't that bad.  Mornings like these are nice because there is no pressure to go anywhere.  Just a lot of shoveling.  Treated the DH and the pugs to a big breakfast of organic eggs, organic bacon and freshly ground and brewed Jamaican Blue Mountain coffee.  Yum!  The pugs didn't like the coffee too much (Ha, ha!). We really don't get the opportunity to eat like that often because it takes an enormous amount of time.  If anyone is ever in the market to purchase a new coffee maker I suggest the Cuisinart Grind and Brew.  Get the newer version, the updates are well worth the price.  Having freshly ground coffee without the mess of having to get out the small grinder is a dream!  Just put the beans in and select how many cups you want to brew and presto!  It measures everything out for you. And let me tell you ladies, freshly brewed decaf is just as good as regular!

Off to a long day of cleaning, shoveling and laundry.  Enjoy your day everyone and stay warm!

Happy Groundhog Day Everyone!

Six more weeks of winter!  Like we couldn't see that one coming! Groundhog day was always well publicized in grade school around here. The same thing goes for Faschnauts Day. The students at my school are mildly familiar with Groundhog Day. I've made it my duty today to make sure that they all leave my class knowing its history. Go Punxsutawney Phil! By the way, if you've never seen the movie "Groundhog Day," it was hysterical. To relive the same day over and over again...not for me!  But I guess there are some days that were truly wonderful that I would be fine reliving.  Here are a few:

• Christmas Eve with my nannie. Dean Martin on the record player, the smell of fried shrimp, baccala, and spaghetti and nuts cooking.

• Any random conversation with my dad. He can talk for hours.
• Bringing home my first dog Max. That's Max on the right.
• Finding out that I got my teaching position.  
• Looking into my husbands eyes and knowing for the first time that I was in love with him.
• My wedding day.  It was magical and I'll never forget it.
• Flying into Maui for our honeymoon without getting airsick. The 11 hrs. went by in a snap.
• Opening the door of our new house after apartment living for 9 years.
• The first time that I danced with a guy that I really liked.
• My first long kiss.
• The first and only apple that I ever received from one of my students. It was this year.  I had to look away because I was tearing up.
• The first time that I saw a Bison. And a day shortly after that we'd seen a heard of Bison crossing the water in front of us.  We were in Yellowstone and traffic stopped to let them all cross. It was a sight to behold.
• The beautiful day that I'd spent in Koln Germany with my first serious boyfriend. Dated him for 8 1/2 years.
• The day that my DH (then boyfriend) visited me at my apartment in college and brought me a 12 pack of toilet paper.  I had very little money and was living off of student loans at the time. Very depressed and living alone. I was taken by complete surprise when he showed up and stayed the night. 

Those are all that come to mind at the moment.  What about you?

Chilly Sundays

It has been ridiculously cold. Yesterday we went to Phila. to see the car show. I know, it doesn't seem too exciting, but it actually wasn't to bad. We even got to meet Vince Papale. So you're wondering who the hell he is. There was a movie out in 2006 starring Mark Wahlberg called "Invincible". It was about Vince Papale. Very neat. It's not the kind of movie that I would've watched without the persuasion of DH. But it was really pretty good.

Not a whole lot to update on, just trying to get caught up with everything that I've been neglecting lately (housework, grocery shopping, me). I think I'm going to get a cup of nice hot cocoa while I catch up on other blogs!

BFNs

Thank you guys for your kind words.  Also, if anyone is reading this please take a moment and stop by ttcnslc.wordpress.com. She just received a BFN on her last IVF and I think she could really use some words of encouragement.

Speaking of BFN.  I wanted to give some insight on how I named this blog.  It was definitely a combination of repressed anger and Progesterone tablets.  Again, it was after my last IVF.  I was so sick.
The doctor had called that evening with my BFN.  I was in bed that night and the DH and I were in some kind of disagreement.  Most likely him not understanding why I'd become so emotional over the fact that I'd received a BFN. At some point I began sobbing very loudly and then the screaming started. I guess I was a bit irrational.  That Progesterone can really kick my a**.  DH came over to console me as much as he could without a uterus (Can a man ever truly understand?). And then it came to me.  That same kind of unstable out of control rage that often is associated with a woman who has been wronged in some way.  And there you have it, the title of this blog.  So much anger, so much anger... But don't forget, I was also very sick. Not only did I have a fever, I also lost some of my hearing in my left ear.  I do not know what I contracted.  I strongly believe that I got it during my retrieval. Was is the Swine flu?  Who knows?  I ended up going through three courses of antibiotics and 2 courses of steroids over the following two months.  My hearing has never been resolved.  It sounds like I'm listening through a tunnel.  It has also amplified my vertigo.  Twice in the past several months I've had to put one of those patches behind my ear to help reduce any dizziness.  It usually lasts for 3 days.  If anyone out there ever gets motion sick, the patches are wonderful.   I did go to an Ear Nose and Throat specialist eventually.  After a CAT scan and an MRI I was diagnosed with "swelling and debrie in my middle ear cleft," caused from an infection.  The doctor wanted me to wait a couple of months to see if it would hopefully clear up.  It hasn't.  I go back in two weeks.

Ignorance Is Bliss

Kind of depressed right now.  I have "The Incredibles"on the TV.  I've never watched it till the end.  The last time I remember seeing it I was in the hospital recovering from a myomectomy.  In two weeks that will be exactly two years ago.  I had so much hope at that point.  I thought that there was no way the IVFs wouldn't work after the fibroid was removed.  I guess I was wrong.

I remember exactly where I was when it all came crashing down.  It was right after my first IVF.  I was standing in a kitchen gadget store when I received the call on my cell phone that my pregnancy test was negative.  I quickly left the store and started to cry.  Even my husband was in shock.  We transfered three embryos.  I told DH that it didn't work and he said, "None of them?"  Little did I know of the pain the next year would bring.

I've been meaning to make an OBGYN appointment soon.  I've put anything involving getting probed "down there" off.  Sometimes it's just too painful to deal with.  Will I have more fibroids? Will my FSH be through the roof?  Ignorance is bliss.  At least for a little while anyway.